Days 5 and 6

Six months ago, I went on a 10 day meditation retreat. Days four and five are the hardest days for most people. At home, my days 5 and 6 were the hardest thus far. The first few days take off the top layers of conditioning. There is still so much left to delve into. Both days I fell into the portal. I am still optimistic and am noticing a difference in my life. The new job is also taking a mental toll. 

I have noticed I am more aware of myself. I can tell when I am getting anxious and can kind of talk myself out of it. I am also sensing myself eating slower, thinking slower, sensing a stillness about the world. It's been nice.